To my dearest father, I don't know how I'm gonna live this life without you. I already miss you so much. I can't even handle it. I'm trying to be strong for mom, but I just can't stop looking at all The text messages and pictures you have sent me in the last few weeks. I prayed and asked for you to make it through the holidays and you did and I love you for that. We will reunite again and I can't wait for that day to hear your voice. Say, my little ditty, I love you. And make sure you take care of my wass. Most people won't know what that means.But I do, and you do that's all that matters.I can't stand the fact that I cant wake up and I can't call you. You are my idol , you are my mentor and you mean everything to me. I called you every time something happened to me and you were always there for me no matter what it was. And I love you for that, and I will never forget. You you are my favorite man in my life and I love you for that. Please wait for me. I will see you 1 day again, I promise. Love your little Ditty. Aka your baby. I miss you so much. And it's been only a few days. Don't ever forget how much I love you. It's gonna be hard for me to live with you, not in my life.\nIt's purely middle week.And I'm struggling, but I will be strong for you.I promise and I will take care your old lady.